Resolve

After finally being able to tie a necktie on my own which took me around 45 minutes, I lay myself down to sleep. Another end of a busy day.

Usually, in 10 minutes, I would be in La-La Land. But last night was different, sleeping was just tough. I had this before and so I did what I did before -- reflect -- discern.

A few minutes of reflecting and discerning -- I finally get it. And this is what echoed back as I threw a stone into the Reflection Well --

Tomorrow would be the start of the most important reasons why I was sent away from my family to the land of the rising sun -- and missing a lot of important events of my life. And my mind set is way off and unsynchronized for this -- like a clock set to tell you the time in California even though you're in China.

"Close your eyes and just think about it" -- I said to myself. "You're here for a reason -- on a mission even -- and you're just going to fail just because you went to war without even bringing a knife with you?"

And now I'm set -- my mind is set -- my focus is set -- engines checked -- shields up -- weapons checked -- we are ready for battle.

This is my fixity of purpose -- my resolve -- while I'm here.

Some people aim to find their sole purpose why they are brought into the world -- spending their whole life searching and they still wouldn't know it.

You know what I think? I think we have purposes in life -- not just one. For every event we encounter in our life -- there is a particular purpose for that specifically and we can make decisions. The decisions we make will likely depend on one's resolve at that particular moment.

I also think that there is no need to worry when one is unable to discern about one's resolve at a particular time -- maybe -- just maybe -- one doesn't think that where one is at one's life is important. But, I think that staying at this state for a long while will make one's life meaningless. One may need to step on the brakes -- hard -- and stop beating the red light.

That's my reflection for the day. I hope it's meaningful to everyone as it is to me.